I'm 22..been that way for a few days..I feel old..I feel weird..I'm sitting here alone, listening to B.B. King and eating mint chocolate chip ice cream and it's raining out. God how sad am I?

So I have something in my throat. It feels like a chicken bone or something sticking out, it's uncomfortable as hell. I've had it since Saturday. Saw the doctor today, which means a lot, cause frankly...I hate doctors, I hate medication and I only see a doctor once a year if that much. He didn't do much. Prescribed some medication that I won't be able to get till tomorrow. He said it's either a sore throat or a minor "abscess" but couldn't be sure. Some doctor...and people wonder why I hate them. Gotta thank Kate for bringing me though.

My Birthday is Monday. I'm getting old. It's on a Monday, and as we all know, Mondays suck. First one without my mom. Father is busy. Friends are most likely busy. Planned on going to the Skyscraper, Fire , and NYC museums, but they are all closed on Mondays. So even if people took off, there wouldn't be much to do except walk around the city. Have no money, and hey...gonna be alone again. Excellent. Fantastic.

Ok...between MS Paint and Monster Garage designing a Gorilla Drivable pickup....

....ALL SANITY IS NOW LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, i'm not even done with this book, but already I can tell you that you gotta friggin get it. It's GOOD. GOOOOOOD. Reading this book, I can't freaking wait to get this job. I can't wait to put on bunker gear. I can't wait to jump on the rig going to a call. I can't wait to rush into a building, flames screeching toward the sky. I can't wait to knock down the red beast and experience what it's like to be a New York City Firefighter. I can't wait.

My Birthday is comin up on June 21st...and frankly i'm not lookin forward to it. It's gonna suck. Jus thought i'd get that off my chest. Thanks for listening.

It's 89 degrees out...and 890 degrees in this damn room....painting my room navy blue and black wasn't a good idea. Help.

"Me and a midget are gonna take a Mazda Miata jetski into Long Beach Harbor...what could possibly go wrong?" -Jesse James

"I wanna beat myself up for driving it." -Jesse James on driving a Mazda Miata

God damn I love Monster Garage.

The fireboat Firefighter