With Christmas rapidly approaching it feels as though normalcy as we all know it has completely gone out the window to a point that even a guy like me has to stop for second, look around and realize something has gone completely screwy with people.

I don't really understand it...maybe that is because my A.D.D. riddled brain really won't let me, or maybe it's because it doesn't want too. Who knows. Either way something is off kilter.

When I was a kid everything was simpler, made more sense and required less batteries.

I really have to wonder what has become of the holiday season. When did we all let it stress us out more then make us happy? I remember when I was really little and I couldn't sleep the night before no matter how hard I tried. Now I can't sleep because there is simply too much to do. Gift-wrapping, cooking, making sure the last of the Christmas cards got out and making sure the snowball cannon is aimed at the neighbors door at the perfect face level.

I remember when I was little and Santa was real and gave me a candy cane. Now I see Santa looking at Sports Illustrated calendars on his lunch break and telling me "it helps the North Pole." Thanks St. Nick, now pardon me while I call Dateline and wash my brain out with something to erase that image out of it.

Common decency needs to return. Hell, so does that..."love" thing too, even though it hasn't exactly worked out for me, dammit, I hope it actually does work out for others. Cause, during ALL times of the year people truly do deserve to be happy. Everyone for the most part should be, save for Mel Gibson and anyone who owns a Lexus.

People are so quick to ignore others just to advance themselves in the world that sometimes I boggles my mind, and i'm guilty of it sometimes too. Sometimes I don't hold a door open for someone and it's something as simple as that that makes me think "is that extra 3 seconds of effort really going to put a dent into my daily schedule?" Simple things, that is all it is.

Now i'm by no means saying lets join hands and sing a rousing chorus of "we are the world." Besides, that jam is way overplayed and what the hell was Dan Aykroyd Doing in that damn video...?! A.D.D. again, sorry.

What i'm saying is...remember that every time you think your hot shit and a badass, which I do on a regular basis, one of the key things to do in keeping that badassery is respect. Not fear. Fear is just life's way of trying to keep you from going for something that you want. Fear does not make you a badass, fear does not make you powerful, it makes you a whimpering little shit, and on one likes whimpering little shits. This is why R2D2 kept trying to ditch C3P0 throughout all 3 real Star Wars movies. He was nothing but afraid of everything the whole damn time.

A person who I know that shall remain nameless leads through treating their peers decently. This person knows peoples weaknesses and their strengths, and knows how best to utilize them for whatever purpose, and people enjoy the company of this person.

Look I realize that to err is to human yes, but it seems like for some reason everyone has gotten stuck in the err phase for far too long and i'm honestly sick of fucking seeing it.

It's fucking Christmas. Just wake up, look at a little kid, look at how its all still fresh for them, and try, at least for a few days to remember what it was like for you when you were that age and if you had a crappy childhood, then maybe you should've stopped reading this about 3 minutes or so ago? I dunno, how slow do you read? Me I'm fairly quick. I'm going off track again...that damn A.D.D. again.

I remember when I was a kid and I used to draw things...nothing that'd make it to an art museum...mainly cars, trucks and baseball stuff. People enjoyed it and didn't question it, and my mother would put it on the fridge. Nowadays if a kid draws a table and chairs, you have 34,435 people psycho-analyzing the kid to find out what he was feeling and why he drew it to determine whether or not he's gonna blow up his house. Maybe he will. Maybe he's just drawing the table and chairs because that is where he wants to plan where to put the dead rat to scare his sister.

People need to stop over thinking what everything feels like and just do something cause it makes us feel warm in our funparts. That is what decency and Christmas should be about. Well maybe not about the warm in the funparts thing...that is unless you're into that. Just make sure it's legal.

I did not think of a fully thought out ending for this because I suck at endings. Honestly I hate them for the most part, except if its a really lame radio commercial. That is why I got Satellite radio in my car...except they have commercials now...that sucks. Oh yeah, endings. I suppose I'll end with this:

Remember that you are stronger then fear. Remember to be decent. And remember that for Christmas I want a nail gun.

For the longest time now, I've wanted to really write something. I have a mass of ideas in my head, but due to...well..life...and my A.D.D....the thoughts come out at the times in which I am no where near a place to write, one of these places is the shower.

I don't what it is about bathrooms that spark the creative mind for me, but that is often where I get the majority of my ideas. I know musicians claim that the acoustics in the bathroom are often top notch...however not being a musician I wouldn't know. Maybe my brainwaves bounce off the tiles better in there then in my own bedroom? Who knows.

One thing I do know is Thanksgiving is Thursday. What do I have to be thankful for? People always ask that question during this holiday and the generic answers usually flow from everyone; "my family", "my health", "my job."

I'm tired of generic. Everywhere you look in the world, all you see is generic, same old bull in pretty much every corner you look. Hardly anyone dares to be different any more and those who do are met with unoriginal, scared stiff's. People are so afraid to take chances in this society that we've become soft. I'd rather see a bunch of free thinkers take an original chance on something, be it movies, art, way of life or whatever...then see the same old boring crap everywhere I look.

Directly across from where i'm presently working, I get to see a "photo studio" where the brainless bimbos, who might I add have zero clue what they're doing for the most part, pile on tons of crap in an attempt to, and i'm trying to remember exactly what a friend of mine said here..."make you feel better about yourself." This means they assume you go in feeling bad about yourself. This to me is a dangerous assumption. Made all the more dangerous by the fact that it's being made by people who should not be operating a clicky pen let alone a camera.

I'll be the first to admit that I know very little about the technical side of photography, but I am at least trying. Like I said, I have A.D.D...so learning tech...I wonder if I can make a boat outta tin foil, i bet it'd...where was I...oh yeah, cameras. I will be the first to tell you that it's tough for me...but I at least try. Yesterday I was calf deep in muck that oozed all sorts of evil...seriously, it started out as tan mud, but once you put your foot in it, it came out black and yellow. I did this in an effort to get some of the best photos I've gotten in a long time. These photos will go up on my website, and people will not buy them, because the economy is crap...or because they'd rather go to crappy "photo-studios" where they pile on so much after effect to a photo i'm pretty sure it wouldn't even make it into Star Wars Episode 3.005-2.

So to those morons I am thankful for continuing to ruin photography for those of us who truly want to make something of it.

What else am I thankful for? I could go on again about how much the Weather Channel had gone downhill do to NBC's involvement, but who wants to hear that?

Maybe I could be thankful for high beam headlights and death metal...which will hopefully continue to keep the deer away from my car?

What about all those happy people roaming this world? Should I be thankful for them, and the fact that sight of all them being so damn happy makes me taste vomit...or maybe it's just whatever i'm smelling coming over from jersey. I'm glad that everyone has jobs they love and great paychecks and is happy with someone. Really, I am. Continue to live it up. I am thankful that everyone is happy.

This is one of the many things I don't get about this holiday. The fake-ness of it all. No one is really thankful for this stuff. They merely want to ingest as much tryptophan as humanly possible, watch over pampered athletes slam into each other, and then wake up at the crack of dawn to make working peoples lives a living hell.

Anyone that works retail on black Friday deserves a friggin medal, because lemme tell ya, I know a lot of people say "oh i'm not that bad when it comes to Christmas shopping." Well...you know what? Yes you friggin are. Not one retail employee is happy to see you that day. In fact, most of us probably wish bad things upon you and your 8 bags of crap in one hand and screaming child in the other.

Most people would be afraid to freely admit to those feelings, but I however simply don't care. Like earlier noted, I'm being a free-thinker. And ya know what? That makes me feel all warm and fuzzy in my funparts.

Does this make me a bad person? I don't think so. Does it make me think the Apocalypse is coming? No. As a matter of fact, we will all be here after 2012. Why? Well for starters, If Marty McFly and Doc Brown taught us anything, we will be here till at least 2015.

And for that...I am thankful. I am also thankful that this year will nearly be over, despite the fact I'll likely be spending it the same way I started it. Sitting on a couch by myself in my living room with a box of Cheez-It's and a bottle of Pepsi.

Oh, i'm also thankful for Chocolate too.

Originally I had no idea what to write this year.

Usually I retell a bit of my experiences from that day, and go on until i'm sure no one wants to hear it anymore. I've been doing this every year since 2001.

A few days ago, something happened to me, and while I won't go into detail about it, I will say that it has forever changed my future, altering a path that I once thought I was intended to walk down. And while I know this may sound melodramatic to an extent, it to me, means something. It's not everyday you essentially have your hopes and dreams essentially ripped from your person.

While i'm trying not to dwell on these recent events, those of you who know me best know that, at best, that's difficult for me. I've been described as myopic, but rest assured I am trying.

After the events of the last few days, i find myself more mentally spent and exhausted then i've felt in a while, which is why this will be brief, or at least why I intend it to be brief.

One thing i've come to realize throughout the course of this experience is that, much like this city and this country, and its people following that September day, this should be viewed as a time when you look adversity and the unknown in the face and push forward and persevere.

So as the saying goes, while a door may have been closed, a window has been opened. And I will not only crawl through that window, but I will dust myself off and see whats next, and I will succeed.

I will now continue on my rant about how bad the Weather Channel has gotten among other things.

We currently have 2...no wait...3....or is it 4....tropical entities, namely 2 hurricanes in the Atlantic right now, one of which is a CAT4, or as Henry Rollins would put it, "Hurricane Motherfucker" type storm. Is the WEATHER CHANNEL covering this? Not right now....they're showing what it would be like "if" an Earthquake would strike Las Vegas.

I don't care about that. I'm pretty sure no one in Vegas even cares about that. What they probably care about is "will this stack of 50's look better on a craps table or in a hookers g-string?"

What it shows, instead of hurricane coverage, hell instead of earthquake footage, is a video of Vegas that someone shook like an etch a sketch. How is this relevant?!?!?!?!?!?!

I want to know about the hurricane, and I want to know if it's gonna hit the Carolina coast, which is what it looks like may happen, or if it's gonna come up here give me the chance to go out and get a surfboard, which also may happen.

I want a surfboard anyway. Not really to surf, because lets face it, thats just a recipe for disaster, but just to have it. I have a whole list of things I want to have, it's on Amazon.com

On this list I happen to have a nail gun. This I could really have some fun(damage)with. It'd have to come with a keen holster though, and when I wore it, i'd get all(none)the ladies.

Baseball ticked me off again tonight. These "Umpires"...wow. Angry. OK. 1..2..3...better.

Jim Joyce's blown call against Armando Galaraga with a perfect game going in the bottom of the 9th, 2 outs might go down as one of the single worst calls in umpiring history. It's a year where the usually "invisible" umpires are sadly becoming more visible, to the point where loudmouth fatass Joe West got fined for just generally being a moron.

This, to me is showing why its becoming harder and harder for me to be a MLB fan. The fans are getting screwed more and more each game, each day and each play.

BUT. I have, what I believe are some very good ideas to bring the game back to prominence, and I will go further into them now.

1]INSTANT REPLAY- Enough with this "it'll make the game longer" nonsense. If you don't like the length of the games, leave the park or change the channel. I'd rather stick around a few extra minutes just to see the right call, than leave the park a few minutes early with a blood pressure reading that will boil steel. I don't wanna see it for home run calls, I wanna see it for every call. Make it like football, each time gets 3 or 4 challenges a game and that's it.

2]ELIMINATE MOST UMPIRES- Save for the home plate ump, whose only job should be ball and strike calls, all umps seem to do is piss off people. Eliminate them. It'll save the game money. Replace them with the official scorer, or better yet, technology. In the 2008 Beijing Olympics, Michael Phelps won a race by .01 seconds, the only way they can tell was with a computer chip in the wall that he touched. Surely we can do something like this for baseball. Have the base blink as soon as the runner touches it.

3]END INTERLEAGUE GAMES- I might be wrong on this, but I think I remember that when interleague was announced, that it was only supposed to be for 5 years or something like that. Now it's every year and some of the match ups have lost their luster. Yankees vs. Pirates? That is a joke. Royals vs. Phillies? C'mon. Not only do you risk injuring pitchers, you kinda make the World Series less exciting. It was more exciting when teams from different leagues faced each other only on Spring Training games and the Series. If Interleague must stay, make it one series, like Yanks vs. Mets or White Sox vs. Cubs, the days leading up to the All Star break.

4]MORE TEAMS OR REALIGNMENT- The National League has more teams then American, and It has always bothered me as to why that is. Either move 2 teams to the AL, likely the Rockies or the Pirates, or form new teams. Surely Las Vegas is over due for a pro sports franchise, or dare I suggest somewhere in America's breadbasket? Maybe Oklahoma City, Topeka, Kansas, or Omaha, Nebraska? There are whole regions of the country that have no baseball near them, and it's supposed to be Americas pastime.

5]THROWBACKS- Wanna have a game with throwback uniforms to bring back a sense of "old time" baseball? Great idea, but lets take it a step further. For those games, lets also have throwback prices. I don't think MLB would lose much for $5 or so seats for the whole park for one or two days.

6]SALARY CAP- Yea, I know i'm gonna catch flack for this but I don't care. I get sick to my stomach when I see guys complaining about not making an extra $40 million a year on top of the $60 million they're already making when some people are digging in dumpsters for food and teachers and firefighters are losing their jobs meanwhile these pampered blowhards get paid ludicrous amounts of money to play a game we all happily play or played as kids for free. Whatever happened to "for love of the game?" In addition to the regular salary, these bums already get money from endorsements anyway. So what if they don't make that extra 40 mil? Can't afford that 3rd Mercedes? Whaaa.

7]PERSONAL CONDUCT FINES- The NFL has it, so why can't MLB? If I have to see Manny Ramierez stare lovingly at his HR for 10 minutes before he decides to run the bases, i'm gonna jump through my TV and strangle him with his own dreadlocks. For players who do this, there should be a mandatory $50,000 fine. Quit staring and run the bases like Williams, Mantle and the rest of the real players did.

8]HOMETOWN PLAYERS- This might be a little controversial at first but I believe it could have good repercussions long term. I think, in order to bring the hometown feel back to the game, every 25 man roster should feature at least 2 players who were born in or spent most of their life within 50 miles of the team they play for. I think it'd do a lot for the game. It'd give the fans a hometown guy to root for. Sure I like Posada and Pettitte but I Jeter was born close by. And while I know this might be sore subject with some, Teixeira was born in Baltimore, which is why he is currently reviled there. I love rooting for hometowners.

9]RAIN DELAYS- This one is simple. If it's a night game and the delay goes on for longer then an hour, call the game. I'm tired of waiting for hours at a time to see if they resumed play.

Wow. Look at that, 9 ideas....9 innings...9 players on the field. That tied up nicely didn't it? Oh Wait, extra Innings!!

10] FIRE BUD SELIG

Nuff' Said.

Well it's been over a week now since my ear surgery and even though I've been outside, i'm still going stir crazy. It's not fun. Now for those of you who didn't know, yes, I had surgery last week.

I lost a lot of my hearing in my left side. They did CT Scans and couldn't even see my ear drum. So they went in there to repair everything and found out what coulda been a tumor was a bone. Fun times. They also did a skin graft, which for those of you who aren't medically knowledgeable means taking skin from an undamaged part of the body, usually under the arm of the back of the thigh and putting it where damaged skin is. They do it a lot on burn victims.

So they did that to my ear, removed the bad tissue and bone and stitched me up, yet right now it ain't pretty. I look like my ear got into a boxing match with a rat. There are are also drops I have to take that help drain the ear...which makes me leak like a BP Oil rig(Too soon?).

Either way, I now get a lot of time to watch TV and root the internets for fun things. I've been trying to avoid the news for the most part, because frankly it's depressing. I really don't want to hear about Oil leaks, firehouse closings and budget crises, but alas, I hear about them anyway.

Those of you who have known me for at least 5 minutes, know how big a part of my life the fire department is. So you can imagine when I hear that our jagoff of a "mayor" once again is going after them, i tend to get...angry. Closing firehouses is not a smart way to plug up budget holes. Especially on my forgotten rock. Staten Island doesn't even have enough fire protection now. What will happen when the now mostly empty 36 acre Stapleton Home port gets developed with 800 or so housing units? More people will someday mean more potential fires.

Same Goes for the Fresh Kills park idea, which will turn 2200 acres of former landfill into a park almost three times the size of Central Park.



The problem with that is that parks here on Staten Island tend to catch fire an awful lot, with Great Kills going up on average of 3 times a year, many of those fires reaching at least 3 alarms.

The more alarms, the more units needed. The more units needed, the more they pull in from other boroughs, in turn leaving them unprotected. A classic example of this was in April, when 4 fires broke out in one day on this island. The second of those fires had more units from Brooklyn then Staten Island! Closing houses is not the answer!

Nor is hiring people based on the color of their skin, especially in a job where other people's lives depend on it. I mean for crying out loud, do you really want someone answering the call that is only there because some judge wanted their idea of "Equality"?

Equality is everyone getting a fair shot. Everyone, not a specific group. I don't care if the person saving lives is black, white, Asian, alien or whatever the hell species Joan Rivers is, so long as they got there based on their ability, end of story.

Since the surgery I've been watching a lot of the older episodes of "Build It Bigger" on the Discovery Science Channel, and if you haven't seen it, I highly recommend it. As far as building shows go, it is unique in the fact that it's host, Danny Forster, seen below, is actually an architect.

Danny goes around to building sites from the Washington Nationals baseball stadium in D.C. to the Shanghai World Financial Center in China. Oh yea, and he doesn't like heights, so putting him in a crane in Singapore sees him flip out a bit, which adds a human side to the simple documentary. Not only do you learn, you feel like you're on site with him. He also does not clutter up the show with architectural jargon. He explains everything to the viewer with such ease it almost makes you feel like you can build these places. His enthusiasm for the field of design truly makes the show shine, which is why it's one of my favorites.

It is doing a far better job of entertaining me then the finale of LOST, which was a complete disappointment. Maybe "Castle" won't let me down as my new serial of choice when it returns this fall. Maybe I need to stop watching so much TV?

One thing I have realized during this time is I got some pretty damn good friends. From the Chocolate Syringe that I got from White Chocolate And Zucchini to the cards from Lasagna...from the visit by Corky and Crash to the Package from Lor and the tons of texts, emails, comments and the such, you guys sure know how to make a guy feel good when he has his ear rebuilt like the six million dollar man....which ironically I never did watch. Go figure.

Also, while I was being sliced open like a Turkey on Thanksgiving, my good friends The Neccos welcomed a new wafer into the package, Cassandra Hope, who undoubtedly is being fitted for her cape as I type this.

After watching the first few days of Olympic coverage, I’m reminded why I only watch NBC during the Olympics. I really don’t think it’s necessary to show the death of an athlete over and over. This sensationalism that has overtaken nearly every aspect of media has gotten beyond out of hand and needs to stop. And I’m not the only one that thinks this way. Other bloggers and media watchdog groups have constantly sought out ways to end this incessant garbage that we’re plagued with.

Getting back to my gripe about NBC. As I’ve been watching the Olympics I’ve been treated to commercials for their upcoming shows and I see I’ve missed nothing. “The Marriage Ref”? Really? Celebrities giving advice on marriage? Why not just have Sarah Palin become a geography teacher? 

If NBC‘s destruction of normal programming isn't enough, they've driven my beloved Weather Channel into the iceberg as well. There is more non-weather programming on then ever before. It’s THE WEATHER CHANNEL! Not the traffic/news/sports channel, yet every morning we have to deal with Al Roker, who is the most piss poor excuse for a weather forecaster that I’ve ever seen. I want my Weather Channel back NBC.

Moving on and up the channel dial from 4 to 5...if you’re a New Yorker, after watching yesterday’s Daytona 500, I’m reminded why I don’t watch a lot of NASCAR anymore. Part of it is NASCAR itself, Part of it is sports in general, and part of it is FOX. See, I’m not afraid to admit that I used to be a huge NASCAR fan. I supported my driver, Kyle Petty, for 20 years, even though when he retired, he hadn’t won a race in over a decade.

Both He and his family owned team were essentially pushed out. This team was to NASCAR what the Yankees are to baseball. But they became swallowed up by a greedy sport who cared more about the dollar then ever before, which is saying a lot for a sport that relies on sponsors more then any other. It is a shell of it’s former self. The pointless attempts at, “going back to it’s roots” have proven futile. The whole idea of NASCAR is to have racing done with STOCK cars, they used to go by the philosophy of “Win on Sunday, sell on Monday.” How can you use that philosophy if even the seat belts aren’t stock? The cars they race now are boxes on wheels.

Yesterdays race was delayed for more then 2 ½ hours because of a freaking pothole. If the NYC department of transportation actually moved their asses once in a while, that thing would have been patched up in 3 minutes. Dale Earnhardt Jr. even said “why don’t they throw a cone down and we’ll race around it.” Not a bad idea, especially considering the sports roots came from racing on hard, rough sand at the beaches a few short blocks from the track itself. But oh no, not on today’s $150,000+ cars. That’s right, $150,000 plus. You could buy 9 of my car with that kinda cash. This from a sport that used to have its competitors drive the car the raced to the track and in most cases, those drivers used it as their families car Monday-Saturday.

And to have the idiots at FOX praise NASCAR and the owners of the track was insulting. Of course they don’t have a problem with the situation. They have multi million dollar tour buses and luxury suites to hide in an occupy their time with, all the while fans in the track and on TV are left twiddling their thumbs. And not for one minute do I believe that no one left the track disgusted. But will FOX sports ever criticize anything? Of course not. For those who say I’m “whining”, let me ask you, do you remember Alan Kulwicki? Do you remember the “Dale and Dale” show? Do you remember when pit crew members held the sign for their driver to stop instead of using a pole? No. You don’t remember how good sports in general used to be. I should have realized it sooner, like during their second or third broadcast when their idiotic color commentators were “jokingly” broadcasting from, I kid you not, a hot-tub. How is one supposed to take a sport seriously at that point?

FOX has ruined sports We want to see sports. We don’t want to see the "Viagra crotch cam sponsored by Maxim." We want to see the score, not Optimus Primes neighbor transforming into the scoreboard. We want to see thoughtful interviews with a athletes, not some moron with in a bow-tie asking Derek Jeter the same question 324 times, yet trying to phrase it differently in some vain attempt to try and fool the him into answering it with something more provocative for ratings. Whatever happened to good journalism?

Journalism used to mean something. It used to be people like Walter Cronkite and Dan Rather. They made us think, made us feel and delivered real news, cut, and to the point. Now all we see is pointless drivel. I don’t care about the latest Britney Spears meltdown. I care about things THAT ACTUALLY AFFECT ME. It seems reporters care more about contracts and pleasing the fat cats then real news. There are very few real journalists nowadays and it’s disturbing. What the hell happened to our values? When did we become so consumed by what other people are doing that it became more important then our own lives?

Why is it that the world comes to a stop when a former musician/full time freak show/part time child molester finally croaks, but no one gives a damn when a solider or a firefighter or a police officer or a teacher dies. I know for a fact that those people have done far more for modern society then anyone on MTV or whatever network it is that turns people into drones nowadays.

I like Aerosmith. Have they changed my life? Absolutely not. I can however think of some firefighters on Richmond road here on Staten Island that have. I’m a fan of KT Tunstall. Has she greatly impacted me? Not nearly as much as my cousin, who’s proudly serving in the Navy. I think Tom Hanks is a great actor, but not nearly as great a teacher as some of the English teachers I had in high school. Sure Larry the Cable Guy is entertaining and funny, but I think my friends kids are more enjoyable and definitely more funny. 

Modern society is falling apart quicker then the track surface at Daytona. We’ve become far too consumed by technology and over-indulgence. This is not to say I’m not a little bit guilty of it myself, but no where near the level of what some are facing. Why is it we all have to be connected at every point in our day? Why can’t we just stare at the clouds anymore?

Michael J. Fox said it best in his book,(remember those? Blocky shaped things with pieces of paper and words on em’?) “Always looking up: The Adventures Of An Incurable Optimist” about one of his daughters, Esme`; “The trick she’s mastered, or maybe it’s more of a facility than a trick, is moving effortlessly between the boundless world of her imagination and the everyday world the rest of us occupy. She’s not an escapist; she just holds two passports and travels often. I always warn babysitters, teachers, visiting relativities, or anyone else looking to occupy her with one activity or another, if you come upon her lying flat on her back on the sofa, on a rug, or in a tree branch with her eyes staring into space, she’s not doing nothing. She’s busy. Let it go.”

That’s one of the most intelligent thing’s I've read in ages. I miss that child-like sense of imagination and wonder we all had. Why the hell did everyone have to become cynical and snobby?

Look, I’m not saying we all need to become 5 year olds again, I’m not. All I’m saying is that sometimes, instead of becoming critical of everything, enjoy the simple things. I have a page from a coloring book that was colored by a very close friend’s little kid, it’s hanging up on my fridge, and y’know what, I will without any doubt proudly say it’s better then anything hanging in a museum. Why? Because when he colored it, he wasn’t trying to impress a damn soul. He was doing something that made him happy.

Maybe I’m getting retrospective again. I suppose that happens more as you get older. A great friend of mine recently purchased a home. Not an apartment, but a house, one bigger then the one I currently live in. A few years ago I might have joked at him, but for some reason I find myself overwhelmingly proud of him. Another turned 20 this week and she’s going into the military in a few weeks. She’s doing way more with her life then I am, and she’s happy.

Maybe that’s it. Yesterday was Singles awareness day and I’m never happy then. I need more people to be around. People make me happy. That and Fries. I really like fries.