Yesterdays Ago by Gina

I don't understand your ways
And every word you say strays away from the way you acted
Yesterdays ago you were there
Yesterdays ago you showed you cared
Now you're unfair and I no longer care
The touch of you hand once so meaningful
Now brings anger and sickens my soul
You've grown cold and tired
No longer inspired
Once so full of life
Now everything you say so empty and trite, Tell me when things went wrong
Better yet tell me when things were right
When you left me that night I tried to put up a fight
I wish I hadn't cried over all the times you've lied
And said you were true as you looked into my eyes
I should have seen past your blank expressions
And meaningless affection
Should've taken a different direction
Too late for sorry excuses only leading to further abuses
Too late to show up at my door
Begging me back for more
Saying it's me you adore
Why weren't you here before?
You were always at the top of my list
Every time we kissed I was enchanted with bliss
But now I see your fist
It's shaking at me for everyone to see
Why was it so hard to believe
A life could have worked out for you and me?
A feeling you received but never returned
In the end I've learned how to get burned
By your un-trusting eyes and everything you've denied. The nights I tortured myself and cried
Tortured myself and felt like I've died
But now I'm more alive than I have been in years
I've moved on and left behind my fears
The fears of past losses and dried up tears
My past fades away and disappears within you
And everything you do doesn't matter anymore
Like it once did before.

There's no more worrying on my behalf
I remember your laugh and the touch of your hair
I remember back when you seemed to care
I remember the feeling of your lips on mine
I remember when I used to be so blind
I remember the day I could care any less
Whether or not you thought I was best
Now I can finally rest and stop caring
That you're no longer staring. Finally found someone for me
Who truly sees everything I want to be
And all that he wants from me
Is to return the feeling unconditionally
Something you would never know
Something you could never show
I'm happier than you'd ever know
Yesterdays ago I'm so glad you left
Yesterdays ago I'm happy you were like the rest. I've found salvation in someone new
Someone who cherishes everything I do
When I look into his eyes so blue
I can tell he'll always be true
So unlike you...